Prototype

Posted in dolls by Climbing Vine Clothing

It’s been a while since I put anything new on my shop, and I’ve been meaning to for a while, but the holidays are a bad time to start prototyping anything, and so this doll has been about two months in the making. You will see right off that she is primarily a ballerina doll, although with different clothing, she wouldn’t necessarily have to be.

Although this doll may not look very different, (just looking at her face) she really differs in several significant ways. For one, she is the first pattern I drafted myself (almost from scratch) She is taller and thinner, has pointed, rather than flat feet and is made entirely from one piece ie, I didn’t have to sew arms and legs on seperately. I was looking for a doll with a more defined waist since my other dolls are so square in shape and sometimes their clothing doesn’t stay on very well. So I gave her a waist, and I also gave her a wire frame- something that gave me quite a lot of trouble, and needed a lot of tweaking. This is also the first time I have attempted yarn for hair. Since she is more delicate looking, I thought she needed something finer than the jersey strips I usually use. And though I like how it looks, I miss the stretch that the jersey gives me since stretchy hair is much easier to style.

At any rate, here she is. She may or may not be a limited edition, depending on interest and what I can charge for her. (she took me quite a bit longer to make than my other girls)

I had lots of fun with the clothing, both in sewing the beads and flowers, and in adding as many layers of tulle as possible.

Here she is, crossing her ankles like a lady.

Now she will demonstrate various poses to display her flexible wire frame.

Her bendable knees also allow her to sit quite nicely when she is tired of dancing and decides to let her hair down.

And speaking of hair- here are a few closeups, both up and down.

So now we have arrived at the part where I ask for feedback and suggestions. I have to laugh at myself because I keep hunting for something that might be a little less time consuming, and end up making something more complicated. Oh well. Let me know what you think! Thanks!

12Jan2015

The rest of the story

Posted in Cooking by Climbing Vine Clothing

Hi all,

I thought I would give some closure to my last post by providing a simple scone recipe. After all, we need a good excuse to use our delightful new discovery- Cornish (clotted) cream.

Now I grew up eating scones quite often. Living in western Washington state, I was a frequent visitor of the Puyallup Fair (only true Washingtonians can say that name). This fair is one of the top ten largest fairs in the nation. And this fair happens to be famous for it’s ‘Fair Scone,’ a triangular bit of pastry served hot with a dollop of jam which drips down your hands as you visit the impressive livestock or the prize-winning pumpkins and then try to decide which nausea-inducing rides are worth waiting in line for. Almost everyone I know out west has a ‘fair scone’ recipe in their arsenal, and don’t get me wrong- they are tasty, and would work just fine as a vehicle for your cream.

But for the sake of consistency, today I am going to share a recipe for true, English cream scones. I am pretty sure the only real difference between the two is that the cream scone is made with- you guessed it- cream instead of milk. Because we don’t have enough cream in this scenario. Here’s what you need-

3 cups all purpose flour

4 tsp baking powder

pinch of salt

1/4 cup sugar

1 stick butter

1 1/2 cups cream (c’mon- you know you want to)

First combine your dry ingredients in a medium bowl, and then plop the whole stick of butter on top.

Then, with a pastry cutter or your fingers, crumble the butter into the flour until it looks good and crumbly.

Now just pour in your cream. I am using the leftover liquid from the clotted cream recipe here, plus a little regular whipping cream.

Gently stir together until it forms a nice lumpy mass, and plop it straight onto your baking sheet because don’t you hate cleaning up sticky, floury counter tops?

Using floured fingers, gently press your dough into an irregular shape and get out a smallish glass or biscuit cutter. Or you can form it into two circles and cut it into wedges if you like.

Preheat your oven to 375 degrees and put your scones in to bake for about 15-20 minutes. They don’t get very golden on the top, so gently lift one up and see if the bottom is browned- that means they are done!

Now slice one in half, and get ready.

Traditionally, these scones are served with clotted cream and either lemon curd, marmalade or jam. I thought about posting a recipe for lemon curd, but I was too lazy, and so I am putting a link here for the easiest lemon curd recipe I have found. But there are a ton of other recipes out there or (gasp) you can buy it in specialty stores. If you are not familiar with lemon curd (yet another food product that deserves a better name) it is a lemony, silky, buttery custard that is the best partner (in my humble opinion) for clotted cream.

If you are like my husband, you might prefer a nice marmalade. Perhaps I am generalizing, but I think marmalade is an acquired taste for most Americans who aren’t used to slightly bitter flavors in their food. It has certainly taken me a while to appreciate it, but I will never like it quite so much as my hubby. In fact, for Christmas this year, the boys and I made him a whole collection of different marmalades to enjoy with the clotted cream gift.

(pardon the photo quality- I took these at night)

I just loved these cute little Weck canning jars. I’m thinking of starting a collection.

Of course, any of your favorite jams are nice as well.

So now that you have picked your poison, let’s build our scone!

Start with a generous helping of the clotted cream, and I do mean generous. You have to be able to sink your teeth into it, or you won’t enjoy the full experience.

And then a dollop of the fruit product of choice (or one of each)

Of course scones are supposed to go with afternoon tea, but I have found them to be quite as delightful with my morning coffee. I hope you all enjoy! Cheerio!

9Jan2015

Better than Butter

Posted in Cooking, Daily happenings by Climbing Vine Clothing

As you all know, the new year is a time for starting over, for instilling good habits and for watching your waistline. Which is why I am posting a recipe that consists of nothing but condensed whipping cream. Because who are we kidding- those resolutions aren’t going to stick, so we might as well skip all that painful self discipline and get on to the good stuff.

All joking aside, I am posting this recipe because it was a project I was working on as a Christmas gift for the hubby, and I didn’t want to post it during the Christmas season for two reasons- One, I didn’t want him seeing what I was up to, and two, I wasn’t sure it would even work. Here’s a longish back story or two for interest and clarification.

My father-in-law used to run a dairy farm on the southwestern tip of England, near Cornwall. Because of this, he is a veritable mine of information concerning all things dairy. You have to be careful asking him any question regarding cows because he is likely to turn quite encyclopedic on you, and you might not be able to get away for a couple of hours. It’s all very interesting stuff however, if you like dairy, which I do. I remember having a discussion with him once about the making of butter and cheeses and other things, and the term ‘clotted cream’ came up. My blank look told him that I had never heard of such a thing, so he rectified the situation immediately.

He told me in lavish detail all about it, starting with it’s many names- clotted or clouted cream, Devonshire cream or Cornish cream, depending on who you ask. Being an Englishman, he was even able to tell me the slight variations one could find depending on what region you were in and if your palate were discerning enough. But I don’t remember all that. For all intents and purposes I found that it is a product that comes from cooking fresh, unpasteurized cream at a very low temperature for a very long time until the cream condenses on the top. Then you chill the result and spread it on something like a scone.

My hubby was also listening in on the conversation, apparently unaware that he was drooling as he reminisced about the few times he had been able to enjoy this treat as a child when visiting family in England. I took note of the longing look in his eye, and began my mission- to find clotted cream in America.

I thought I had achieved my goal, when one afternoon in a local tea shop, I discovered a tiny jar on a shelf marked with the words- Devonshire Cream. It contained about 4 ounces of the stuff and cost over eight dollars, but I bought it anyway and brought it home to the hubby. He was pretty excited, so we immediately made some scones and spread it sparingly on top. (at two dollars an ounce, we wanted to make it last)

And although it was tasty, it wasn’t quite what the hubby had remembered. After all, it had been made and processed in some way to keep it from going bad, and then shipped half way around the world where it had probably been sitting on that shelf a long time. I didn’t buy it again.

A few years later, we found ourselves with a friend who had access to fresh, unpasteurized milk. She wasn’t allowed to sell it to us legally, but she did let us buy some for our ‘Pets’. (ahem.) I knew what the hubby was thinking as soon as he walked in the door with it. He was going to try making clotted cream. (You know what? I just can’t stand the term ‘clotted’ when it comes to anything food related, so from now on, I’m calling it Cornish cream, even though the residents of Cornwall will doubtless protest.)

At any rate, he tried to make it just using the directions his father had given him all those years ago, letting it heat in a pan on the stove for a long time. We had no idea if it was turning out right or not, but he decided to take it to a friend’s house where we just happened to be invited for a fancy tea. He hadn’t skimmed the cream off the top, but just brought the pan- liquid and all- into the car. He asked me to drive so he could hold it on his lap, but then realized he had forgotten something inside, and so set it on the dashboard. He slammed the car door, and before I could stop it, the whole pan slid off the dash and landed on his seat, deluging everything in it’s path, including myself.

It really was a horrific mess, and it took so long to clean it up that we were very late to our tea party, sans Cornish cream. We were never fully able to clean up everything that spilled in the car that day, and even now, on hot days, you can still get a whiff of it. We didn’t try again.

Fast forward a few more years to when my father-in-law came from France for a Christmastime visit. In honor of his arrival, the hubby and I hunted high and low online until we found a little site that sold Cornish Cream. They charged a ruinous price for it, but we bought two jars anyway, and it arrived straight from Cornwall a few weeks later. My father-in-law was pleased with it, as well as my hubby, as testified by the fact that they polished both jars off in an astonishingly short time. But apparently it still wasn’t quite right- it lacked that fresh, creamy, straight from the cow taste. And it was just too expensive to make a habit of buying.

I decided it was time to abandon my mission. Apparently the stuff was not to be got unless you were able to make it yourself, and that was something I was sure I couldn’t do unless I bought a cow. I never thought to look again until a few months ago, when I was hunting for a good orange marmalade recipe (which my hubby also loves) and I saw a link to a recipe for Cornish cream in the side bar. To my amazement, it said that it was indeed possible it make it yourself- using just a crock pot and cream that had not been pasteurized at ultra high temperatures. It seemed too good to be true, but I thought it was worth a shot. I had to stop at three different grocery stores before I found the right kind of cream, and I bought two quarts just in case I messed up a batch.

I was really nervous when I poured all that cream into my crock pot and set it on low. I hovered nearby for several hours, checking it constantly. Even so, it began boiling and got overcooked. I think my crock pot was just too hot. Nearly in despair, I searched the internet again and found one last tip- try making it in the oven in a water bath. I went ahead and did it, even though I had little faith left that it would work.

But folks, this time it worked beautifully. I can’t describe to you how excited I was to scoop up that wonderful, creamy concoction and put in a jar for my hubby to open on Christmas morning. And at long last, after one taste, he had nothing left to ask for except another bite.

Now, I am well aware that some of you might think we are totally crazy, being so obsessed by something as trivial as a jar of cream, but I suggest you try it and see. You just might find yourself joining our little club. Here’s what you need.

Yep. That’s it. But be very careful to make sure that it doesn’t read UHT (ultra high pasteurized) anywhere. It should just say pasteurized, like this. I found this at Whole Foods.

Now get out two pans- one that fits inside the other. The bigger the better, since you will get more surface area and hence, more cream. I used an 11×15 and a 9×12.

Just nestle the smaller one into the bigger one…

and pour in the cream (I used three 8 oz. containers here)

Preheat your oven to the lowest possible temp- mine is 150. It won’t take long to heat up.

And place the cream in the oven.

Now pour some water (it doesn’t have to be hot) into the outer pan until it reaches about half way up the sides of the inner pan. This is your water bath.

And close the oven door. I put this in the oven around noon and pulled it out right before dinner- about six hours. Half way through, I checked on it and it looked like this.

I know, it looks weird, but that is how it should look- like the skin that forms on the top of a pudding. Just don’t disturb it- you want that layer to get nice and thick.

After six hours, pull it out very carefully. It still won’t look very thick and there will be a lot of liquid under the surface. Just transfer it to your fridge and let it sit overnight. It should firm up a lot and end up looking like this-

I know, still strange. But keep going. Get a slotted spoon and sterilized jar ready to go.

Now gently stick the spoon into the corner and start scooping, letting the liquid underneath drip off, and put the top layer into the jar.

You will notice that it looks a lot like butter, but the taste is totally different, which is quite amazing really, seeing as they are made from the exact same ingredient. Keep scooping and filling the jar.

In the end, you will have about a cup of leftovers in the pan. It’s sort of like whey, but much creamier. You can save it to use it in other cooking or in the scone recipe I am going to post later.

But after the rest of it has all been spooned into the jar and stirred gently together, you should end up with about two cups of this marvelous, delightful, sinfully delicious stuff.

Just stick it in the fridge and wait for my next installment in this series. I’m going to call it “Cornish Cream and Lemon curd- the quest for the perfect scone.” Stay tuned.

7Jan2015

Remorse

Posted in Daily happenings by Climbing Vine Clothing

So today was a long day- nothing particularly dreadful, just lots of fatigue and whining children and noise and a baby who is suddenly mobile and a daddy who wasn’t home yet. It was getting late and I was wishing someone other than myself had put the kids to bed an hour before. And as I was wrestling with dishes and fights and pajamas, one of them suddenly said something to me that hit a raw nerve.

It was a first for me, having one of my children say something that hurt my feelings so much that it made me cry. There was a moment where I was standing there, staring at him, blinking back tears, and then I had to excuse myself. I went into the bathroom and closed the door and had to take a few deep breaths to get a grip and think how to deal with the situation.

I knew he hadn’t said what he did to be malicious, but I also knew that he had no business talking to his mother that way. I was frustrated, angry and hurt, and I wanted to be able to handle things graciously but firmly, to make sure my erring child knew that what he had done was wrong and that he needed to be careful with his words. But I have a hard time telling people when they have hurt me. It feels whiny and self-centered for me to let someone know that I need an apology from them- a chance to extend forgiveness so that I don’t seethe quietly inside from past offenses that I have failed to deal with.

But this was my child- not a sister or a parent or a husband who had offended against me. He is my responsibility and I pictured him, if I ignored this offense and pretended I was fine, growing up to treat his friends and family and eventually his wife in the same way. I knew I had to say something. So I squared my shoulders and opened the bathroom door, prepared to go hunt down the culprit who was no doubt off in a corner somewhere, blissfully and unrepentantly playing with legos.

I was prepared to go and look for him. But I was not prepared to find him standing their with his head leaning against the door. I was prepared to convict him of his sin, but I was not prepared for the look of sheer misery on his face as he turned to try and look at me, and couldn’t meet my eye. I was prepared to administer discipline, but I was not prepared to see his whole body trembling with suppressed sobs of pure remorse as he tried to gasp an apology. I was not prepared for any of it, but I grabbed onto the moment and his shoulders and pulled him close. We both stood there in the hallway, crying together. If you know anything about me, or him, this is not a normal occurrence.

Parenthood is many things, not all of them wonderful. But sometimes I am astonished at the glimpses it can give us into the heart of God. Tonight I thought about how often God has to go and hunt us down in our sin and misery, and drag us, sometimes with a hard providence, kicking and screaming into repentance and restoration. That is usually how I picture remorse- a remorse rooted in getting caught and being forced to deal with what we have done. And that is what I was ready to do for my son because I love him too much to let him remain in his sin.

But tonight I saw a different picture. Tonight I saw that remorse doesn’t always need to be that way. Tonight my boy came to me. He didn’t try to hide or make excuses. Yes he was guilty and he was afraid, but he came anyway and leaned on the door. That was all. He couldn’t quite speak the words. But it was enough. And so tonight there was no hard providence- no kicking and screaming and hard earned restoration. Tonight I smiled over his misery and his grief because it meant a soft heart. Tonight I was glad to receive a wound because it showed me a tender conscience. I thanked God for my small hurt that could bring my boy such big happiness, because as much as I was glad to forgive him, he was giddy with joy to be forgiven.

In my life, as a parent, a wife, a part of God’s family, I so often fail to draw the obvious parallels that He lays out everywhere for my help and benefit. But tonight, at the end of a long day, I know that I too have sinned and offended. I am also a child, guilty and a little afraid. But I will go and lean on the door.

1Jan2015

I am resolved (sort of)

Posted in Uncategorized by Climbing Vine Clothing

Well folks, it’s a new year. Christmas has come and gone with all its joys and busy-ness. I am feeling a little blank, without the rush of doll orders, presents to wrap and holiday food to be cooked. The Christmas tree is droopy, begging to be put on the curb and I think I stepped on the last chunk of candy cane this morning, which means I can finally mop. But before I do so, I wanted to post this little something while I have the nerve.

New years is a time for resolutions, and there is a resolution I have been wanting to make for a long time now- years, in fact.

Simply put, I’d like to write a book.

There are a million and one reasons I have never actually done it. I have probably attempted to start one every year for the last 15 years, but I have always given up a few paragraphs in. I’m always too busy, too full of distractions, and too lazy to put in the time and effort it would take. I am self-conscious about my writing and doubt my ability to do it. I am also afraid, and unwilling to take the risk of spending all that time on something, only to have it rejected.

But I was reading something on Facebook- one of those ‘10 things you should do with your New Year‘ lists that seem so prevalent in my news feed these days. A few things struck me, and they were, first-

“Stop waiting. If you don’t take a chance or a risk now, when will you? Time will always be hard to find. Start now and go after what you want, or wait for later and hope it isn’t too late.”

And second,

“Stop doubting. If you have a feeling that keeps coming back to you, make it happen. When an idea keeps coming back, it’s probably for a reason.”

I’m not sure what that reason might be, but it is certainly an urging that I have never been able to shake off. And the reason I am posting all these things on my blog is because I think I need something to help force me to continue past those first few paragraphs. Maybe you would be so good as to nag me about it? I would definitely welcome feedback as well.

Of course, I make no promises. What I want to do might prove too difficult at this juncture- I might really not have the time, or the ability, or the guts. But I hope that in posting a chapter at a time on this blog, it will help me to take criticism from others, and help me stop taking myself so seriously. I mean, what do I really have to be afraid of? (other than the criticism and rejection of course)

Also, my husband, tired of hearing me whine that I couldn’t write because I don’t have a home computer, went ahead and bought me one for Christmas. So now I have no excuse.

Happy New Year!

20Dec2014

Love Came Down

Posted in Daily happenings by Climbing Vine Clothing

This short story is my first attempt at fiction. Or perhaps I should say a true story in a fictional setting. Most it is based on experiences in my life, but it’s pretty jumbled up chronologically and I added quite a lot to it. It just seemed the best way to share what has been going on in my mind this Christmas season. It’s a very personal story, (the strangest parts are the truest) and I’m a little nervous to share it, because sharing my heart makes me feel vulnerable and because writing fiction somehow makes me more self-conscious. But I’m going to risk it. It’s a little longer than usual. Hope you don’t mind. Merry Christmas!

The hike had started at midnight. According to the locals, this was the best way to experience the mountain, and with perseverance and luck, one could reach the end of the trail just as the sun was rising. It sounded good in theory but at 3 am, half the hike completed and legs already like putty, I was done. I had always prided myself on being an excellent hiker, but this mountain had me beat. I sat down on the side of the trail, ignoring the snow that covered my boulder chair, and howled.

“Just leave me here honey,” I moaned. “You can finish without me. I probably won’t freeze to death before you get back.”

My husband gave me one of his infuriating smiles- those smiles that expressed all too plainly that he was about to ask me to do something for my own good. And he of course, with his calm demeanor unimpaired by weakness or emotion, new best. He knew how sorry I would be if I didn’t continue- how I would always regret not finishing what I had started. He also sensibly reminded me that if we didn’t keep moving, we actually would freeze, and that the closest way to warmth and rest was the cabin at journey’s end. Then pulling me to my feet and dusting the snow from my pants, he took my hand and we continued on our way.

We pushed on for a few more hours, my legs soon finding a steady rhythm as they pounded the frozen ground. I began ignoring the pain and trying to take in my surroundings. Up until this point we had been hiking through dense forest, bathed in that eerie light that only comes from snowy landscapes at night. Seeing nothing but snow laden trees on either side, I looked up instead, and stifled a cry as a huge ghostly shape floated overhead, enormous amber eyes hunting the ground for prey.

“Honey!” I gasped.

“It’s a snowy owl,” came the whispered response.

I was amazed at the sight and also completely spooked. All was silent in the dark wood except for the crunching of our boots and I found myself shivering from more than just the cold. It felt like something out of a fairy tale, and not one that would end happily ever after. I started to wonder why we had come at all.

But in a few moments, the darkness seemed to lessen and the trees thinned. We rounded a corner and the forest came to an abrupt end. The vast expanse that suddenly opened above us made me feel light-headed and I clutched at my silent husband’s arm. That eerie feeling was replaced by awe, and I no longer wondered why we had come.

We were standing in an enormous valley- a deep, snow-filled bowl surrounded by mountain peaks. Above us, the broad swath of the milky way dominated the velvet sky, excepting where the edges of the jagged peaks stood out against it in sharp outline. My mouth opened, but words were futile. Tears came instead.

We had arrived at our destination earlier than expected. In the distance, across the starlit snowfield, I could see the small cabin we had been striving to reach. But all thoughts of cold and exhaustion had disappeared. This was not a moment for creature comforts. It was a moment to see our Creator. We held our breath and gloried.

Eventually the icy flow of tears slowed and we breathed again. The stars were fading, the cabin inviting us to warm our numb hands and feet. When we finally reached it, we found the door unlocked, as promised. It was a rustic space but well furnished, and a neat stack of wood was ready in the fireplace. The flickering light of crackling flames soon added to the beauty of the moment, and the discovery of the means to make a pot of hot chocolate were thankfully taken advantage of. With a sigh of contentment we sank deep into armchairs. The whole front of the cabin, we were elated to find, was constructed of broad glass windows, which gave a breathtaking view of the surrounding mountains. All we needed to do now was watch the show.

It started along the outline of those jagged peaks that only moments before had been cutting off the starlight. A barely perceptible flush crept along each edge and slowly slid down the silent, snowy faces of the cliffs. Rose pink light, tinted with gold made the mountains seem to grow taller. We gloried again, forgotten hot chocolate growing cold in our hands. After a long time, a sliver of the burning sun broke the mountain barrier, filling the valley with a glittering light so bright we had to close our eyes. The sunlight warmed our upturned faces. Without knowing when, we both fell asleep.

–

The descent from this transcendent experience was almost as silent as our ascent. As brief as it had been, I felt sure I would never be the same person again. I was marked for life by those few glorious hours on the mountaintop and never again would it be difficult to find God. Reading my husband’s expression, I was pretty sure he was thinking the same thing. And though our faces might not actually have been shining, I felt that that was as close to Moses on Sinai as I was ever going to get.

It was a bit of a shock, several hours into our descent, to find the snow growing thinner on the ground, and then disappearing altogether. I had forgotten, in the magic of the night before, that it wasn’t even winter yet- had forgotten just how high we had climbed to reach that unseasonably snowy world. September’s leaves were only just beginning to fall off the trees at the base camp where we had left our car.

With a groan of relief, we lowered our heavy packs to the ground and loaded them into the trunk. Opening the doors we stood for a moment gazing around, holding onto the moment. Then, with a sigh, we got in the car. Real life was calling.

–

The first several days after our return were wonderful. It is always delightful to be reunited with a child, even if you have only been away a few days. And it was the first time we had been away from our son, so we were doubly glad to kiss his chubby cheeks again. Both of us were exhausted from the physical strain we had endured, but with the euphoria of our hike still hanging over us, we smiled through the days of aching muscles and blistered feet. How loving and kind we were to each other as we returned to daily life, with the influence of Creation upon us. How patient with our fussy baby, how cheerful to do our work.

But my fatigue did not go away. My husband recovered quickly, but each morning that first week, and for several subsequent days, I felt weak and nauseous One day he came home from work to find me sobbing in bed.

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me,” I wailed. “I’m grumpy and moody and I have no energy at all! I just feel sick all the time and I don’t know what to do.”

He waited for my sniffling to subside with another of his infuriating smiles playing at the corners of his mouth. He then kissed me on the top of my head and went to buy a pregnancy test.

–

So another baby was on the way. Sure we were living in an apartment too tiny for even three people. Sure we were starting work on a bigger house and it would be a lot of hard work to get into it before this baby was born. It didn’t matter. We pushed ahead excitedly. Pregnancy wasn’t going to slow us down.

But hardly had we gotten used to the idea of a new life when I was awoken one night with a terrible suddenness. At first I thought it was a nightmare, just remnants of the fear leftover from our first pregnancy and the baby I had miscarried. But soon there was no doubt- I was bleeding. I hated to wake my sleeping husband and tell him this news, again. But as soon as I woke him, he seemed to see it in my face. He asked if I wanted to go to the hospital. After our last terrible experience in the hospital that landed us with a 10,000 dollar bill and a lot of emotional damage, I told him I wanted to avoid it if possible. So we lived again through several anxious and heartbroken hours. There was soon little doubt that I had lost the baby.

I was racked by guilt thinking that our wonderful hike had somehow hurt my baby. And I was confused. It had seemed like a precious gift, that transcendent moment we had shared under the stars. But now the taste of it was sour in my mouth- tainted by grief and doubt. I clung to the memory, hoping to bring it to my aid, but it was ebbing away like a pleasant dream.

–

After a week, everything seemed to be back to normal, physically speaking. We informed our families that we had lost another baby. We tried to move on. Busyness helped with the grief. Our housing renovation was in full swing and my spirits and energy returned. I was still young, there would be other babies to help fill our new house.

“After all,” I was soon able to reason to myself, “for every mountaintop there must be a valley.”

I spoke those words glibly, but nothing could have prepared me for how deep that valley would get in the next few months. Just two weeks later, my husband unexpectedly lost his job, and we had to say goodbye to all of our plans for the new house. It seemed to me like another death. But even as we struggled to reconfigure our future, we received a devastating phone call. My father had been diagnosed with a terminal illness. While we were trying to absorb the shock of this discovery, and with a suddenness that left us reeling, my brother-in-law died.

The Christmas season was now upon us and there was nothing but grief and death, confusion and heartache in all directions. I cried out to the God of the mountaintop, but he was too far away to hear me. The clear alpine air had turned to a dense and dark cloud of misery. And now, wherever I turned, I saw the misery of others. So many were hurting, so many fighting dark battles, so many longing for a moment where they could see the face of God on the mountain and be comforted. I grew depressed and bitter that I couldn’t climb back up to that place of peace and assure myself that God was in his heaven. I felt sick and tired all the time again, with strange pains in my stomach, terrible heartburn and problems sleeping.

“I’m pretty sure I have an ulcer,” I told my husband one morning as I described my symptoms. He didn’t smile this time.

But it was Christmas. I was too busy and distracted to go to the doctor. I felt as if I was hanging on by a thread in every way- physically, emotionally, spiritually. And as I struggled one morning to find meaning in and make sense of the burdens now placed on me and my entire family, and as I longed to bridge the distance between me and a distant God, one simple line suddenly flashed through my mind-

“Love came down at Christmas.”

I couldn’t even remember where I had heard it before, but the words continued to pound in my ears.

“Love came down at Christmas.”

I grabbed my computer and looked it up. I remembered. It was Christina Rosetti.

“Love came down at Christmas,
Love all lovely, Love Divine,
Love was born at Christmas,
Star and Angels gave the sign.”

A breeze was stirring my foggy thoughts. Of course it was a truth I had known since I was a child, that Jesus had come from heaven to earth at Christmas. But I had never until now had even a taste of just how low he had had to stoop. For the first time, I had an inkling of what it might have like for him to trade divine glory for human misery. Phrases from the old carols came thick and fast now-

“He came down to earth from heaven, who is God and Lord of all, and his shelter was a stable and his cradle was a stall”

“Mild, he lays his glory by, born that man no more may die.”

“Come to earth to taste our sadness, He whose glories knew no end”

“Oh, come, our Dayspring from on high,
And cheer us by your drawing nigh,
Disperse the gloomy clouds of night,
And death’s dark shadows put to flight.”

“As the Light of light descendeth
From the realms of endless day,
That the powers of hell may vanish
As the darkness clears away.”

“Sacred Infant, all divine,
What a tender love was Thine,
Thus to come from highest bliss
Down to such a world as this.”

Then with a final phrase, I was undone.

“Lo, within a manger lies
He who built the starry skies”

There in that dirty house that I hadn’t cleaned in two weeks, surrounded by piles of unfolded clothing and dirty dishes, in my grief and despair, I realized that the God of the mountaintop was right there with me.

–

My husband came home to find me sobbing again, but there was joy in the tears this time. I tried to tell him my thoughts and express my sudden lightness of heart, but once again, words seemed futile and the tears just flowed. Even so, that night I still felt sick and the sharp little jabs in my stomach kept me from sleeping. I made an appointment.

When I got to the doctor’s, I told them my suspicions. They did some basic tests, asked me some questions about the stress in my life, and told me they were going to draw some blood. But when the nurse came back in, she wasn’t carrying any needles and she was smiling.

“Honey,” she said. “You’re pregnant.”

I was floored. With all the turmoil in my life of late, the thought hadn’t even occurred to me. My jeans had been feeling slightly snug of late, but nothing out of the ordinary.

“Do you know how far along you might be?” she asked.

Feeling like an idiot, I told her I had no idea, but that I had been feeling some strange pains in my stomach lately. She looked surprised and came to feel my belly. With a quick look at me, she wheeled the ultrasound machine over and called in the technician. Within minutes, they were running that little wand over my belly.

“Well, we have a healthy baby here,” said the technician. “Would you like to know what it is?”

“You can tell already?” I asked, flabbergasted.

“Yes, I’d say you are about 5 1/2 months along.”

The room began to spin. 5 1/2 months? How on earth was that possible? But that meant…that meant I had never miscarried my baby back in September. It had to be the same pregnancy. And all the heartburn and insomnia and the strange pains in my stomach- that was a baby? And I was hardly showing! There were so many questions and so much mystery. I tried to explain all of this to the nurse, but could only stutter. She just smiled and said,

“Well, it’s definitely a boy.”

And there, sitting in that little room, dressed in a paper gown and surrounded by strangers, the God of the mountain and the manger- the Great Giver of good gifts, was with me again.

4Dec2014

For all you garlic lovers out there

Posted in Childhood, Cooking by Climbing Vine Clothing

It’s been quite a while since I posted any recipes on this old blog of mine. But since it’s Christmas time, I naturally felt it was time to share a salad recipe with you. No, really! For all of those feasts coming up with Turkey and Ham and potatoes, I always like something fresh and cool to counterbalance the heaviness. But this salad can stand alone as well. We eat it all the time, with a
little chicken or steak, as a main course. You could call it a Caesar, since it is closely related ingredient-wise, but it’s really a hybrid of two salads that I have tweaked into one. It’s based on The Pioneer Woman’s Caesar, and a recipe that a dear friend of my family’s used to make. I never saw that recipe in writing, but I remember it vividly for it’s key ingredient- Garlic. I just call it Garlic Salad.

The first time I ever had the original garlic salad was at said family friend’s house. This family was new to our church, and we were just at the beginning stages of getting to know one another. But after the first meal at their house, we were on our way to becoming good friends. That woman could cook! I myself was just beginning to develop an interest in cooking, and she was absolutely inspiring. I watched her make this salad that day, and though I don’t remember proportions, I remember the lettuce tossed with soft croutons which were slathered in a dressing comprised mostly of mayonnaise and an undisclosed number of heads of garlic. Not cloves folks- heads. She was so passionate about garlic that she regaled me all the afternoon with stories of her many pilgrimages to the Garlic festival in Gilroy California, where you could “smell the garlic for miles.”

We also started to get to know her children better that day. Her oldest son was a quiet fellow whom I knew from school, since together we made up the majority of the tenor section in the high school choir. (what can I say, – you do what you gotta do when you’re short on tenors) We weren’t exactly close before then, but we bonded that day- over garlic salad. I think most people there enjoyed the salad, but we two LOVED it. We returned again and again to that giant silver bowl, grinning sheepishly over our garlic gluttony, little knowing the price we would pay the next day.

I went to bed that night still tasting that salad, even after a vigorous tooth brushing. But it was nothing to the taste in my mouth when I woke up in the morning. I not only tasted it, but could smell it wafting out of every pore of my body. I rolled over in bed and my sister wrinkled up her nose.

“What in the world? Is that you?” she asked. “How much of that salad did you eat?”

I hurriedly jumped in the shower, scrubbing myself all over. I then applied plenty of perfumed lotion which got me out of the house without attracting anymore notice, but by the time I got to school, it was no use. I walked into my class and took a seat. Within seconds, the girl behind asked why it suddenly smelled like a Mexican restaurant in the room. I sank lower in my chair and put my coat back on, hoping it might mask the odor.

I made it through a few more periods, avoiding people as best I could, until it was time for choir. I entered the choir room and saw my fellow garlic-indulging friend sitting in the tenor section. I went to sit next to him, but smelled him before I got to my chair. I looked at him and he looked at me. Then, without a word, we scooted our chairs forward as far as we could to spare the bass section, and he silently handed me a box of Altoids.

Now have no fear. The recipe I’m about to share is nowhere near as garlicky as the aforementioned one. But it still has plenty of kick without leaving you with a garlic hangover the next day.

Here’s what you need-

That’s two romaine hearts if you’re wondering. Also, use good quality mayonnaise and a nice baguette. It makes a difference.

First, make your croutons. I usually cut enough to cover the bottom of a medium sized pan. And I use my kitchen shears to do it. It’s easier.

Put them in your pan over medium heat, and drizzle them generously with olive oil and sprinkle them with salt.

Then just let them toast, shaking the pan occasionally until they are a nice golden brown, but still slightly soft.

While they are toasting, start your dressing.

In a bowl, place
1/2 cup of mayonnaise and
The juice of one lemon

Now for the garlic.

In my long quest for finding the easiest way to chop garlic, I have used any number of devices. One of these days I am going to admit to myself that it’s just easier to get out the cutting board and mince it, but these days, I’m using this doohickey. It works pretty well.

I like to use at least four good size cloves in this salad, usually more. But obviously, this is up to you. Less is fine, although then, you probably couldn’t call it a garlic salad anymore. Just chop it up.

And add it to your dressing, along with a dash of worcestershire. (About 1 tsp.)

Now stir it all up with some salt and pepper.

It’s time to put it all together!
Roughly tear your romaine and drizzle it generously with the dressing.

This is actually enough dressing for two of these salads. I like to double it and keep the second half for another day.

Oh, and don’t forget the freshly grated parmesan and the croutons, which should be nicely golden by now.

So there you have it. If you’re in the market for something garlicky, this is the one for you. And don’t forget the Altoids!

2Dec2014

Cooking and Singing Don’t Mix

Posted in Cooking, France, Music by Climbing Vine Clothing

I love sewing y’all, but sometimes I need a break. Sometimes I like to get back to the writing part of my blog. I really do enjoy writing. It is a stress relief for me, and my fingertips are currently needle-shredded. So here is a little story I wanted to post last week, around Thanksgiving time, but I was just too busy doing Thanksgiving.

It’s another story about my time in France, and I like it because it includes my love of cooking, my love of singing, and, well, my love of talking about my time in France.

In the past, I have blogged about how I started dabbling in the kitchen around the age of 12. But my passion in those early years was for baking, not cooking. I hardly ever tried making things outside the realm of refined carbohydrates, so that by the time I found myself in a foreign country at the ripe age of 18 and in charge of feeding myself, I was pretty much limited to spaghetti and sandwiches. My two roommates, having known me to show up at my high school with bread or cookies to feed the entire student body, probably assumed that I knew my way around every corner of the kitchen. They were mistaken.

Our first essays into the culinary world were laughable at best. I think the biggest problem we had was that instead of trying to learn how to cook with the traditional French ingredients readily available to us, we were constantly trying to mimic the foods we missed from home. I remember at Thanksgiving, we got so homesick for American food that we ventured out to find ‘Kennedy’s’, a small store that other foreigners had told us about. This little store sold imported American goods at outrageous prices. A can of pumpkin for pie cost about five dollars. Tiny jars of Jif peanut butter, boxes of jello and graham crackers just about broke our food budget for the month. And don’t even ask how much they wanted for a package of Oreos.

One such memorable episode was around Christmas time, when one of the girls insisted she needed Cool Whip for a traditional dessert. We set out in search of the precious artificial dairy whipped topping (Kennedy’s being closed) and had to settle for some unknown substance called Crème Fraiche, which came in a similar looking container. It was a surprisingly good substitute!

I learned something else about cooking while I was in the culinary capital of the world. If you want to cook good food, it is going to cost you, no matter where you live. We lived in the dormitory of a seminary with lots of broke students, and there wasn’t a lot of haute cuisine going on in that kitchen.

After a while, and to my surprise, seeing as I was always puttering around in the kitchen, I was often asked how to make things by the French students. My biggest surprise was when a friend of ours, who was in charge of student social events, asked me to help him oversee a large and important dinner party for the students and the visiting board of the seminary. In my naïveté (and I must admit I was flattered) I agreed.

We made up a menu. I don’t precisely remember everything we decided to make that night, but I do remember we decided on roasted pork. I figured that would be easy enough even though technically, I had never attempted to cook a pork roast. But I was pretty sure I had seen my mother do it once or twice.

While all this was going on, there were other things preparing for the seminary board’s visit. One of those things was a choir concert. My friend ‘E’ and I had joined the tiny little seminary chorale earlier in the year and had been trying, without much success, to understand the French both in the music and coming from the choir director.

There was also a bit of culture shock coming from the style of the music. I had grown up as, shall we say, a musical conservative. As far as religious music went, my family was strictly classical and believe it or not, my first real exposure to American contemporary Christian music was in that little chorale. (Just try to imagine Michael W. Smith in French).

The final song for the concert was a piece that I really didn’t care much for. In my humble opinion it was corny, overly dramatic, and had way too many unnecessary key changes. (I think there were seven in the last two pages, each one climbing higher into the stratosphere) There was also a lengthy solo involved, that would require the soloist (gasp) to walk around the stage and sing all of those ridiculous key changes directly into a microphone held in her hand! It was a huge leap away from Mozart and Mendelssohn so dear to my heart, but you guessed it. I got landed with the solo.

Dreading the fact that it was also in a language I was far from mastering, I tried to decline, but to no avail. So there I was, slated to finish up the concert with a melodramatic bang and cook dinner for the whole seminary on the same night.

Things went fairly well that day. Between prepping food and last minute choir rehearsal, I was on my feet most of the day, but things were coming together. I even managed to fit several large pork roasts into the miniscule oven that we had to use. Everything was roasting and simmering that should be roasting and simmering, the tables were all set, and I just had time to run and get dressed before the concert. I changed, ran a brush through my hair and slapped on some lipstick. But just as I got back downstairs, I thought it would be wise to check on the pork one last time.

I raced into the kitchen, grabbed a potholder, opened the oven and yanked out the pork-laden oven rack a trifle hastily. Before I realized what was happening, a wave of scalding, simmering water and pork drippings came sloshing out the side of the pan and deluged the oven, the floor and my startled legs. I yelped in panic, both from the pain in my shins and from fear of a huge grease fire. I grabbed some towels and started frantically mopping in every direction.

Thankfully the pain in my legs passed quickly and I think the nylons I was wearing were the only thing that saved them from severe blistering. I cleaned up the mess as fast as I could, knowing that I was already late for the concert. But as I raced out of the kitchen I knew that something had to be done about my legs. Grease soaked and smelling of pig, they had to be attended to.

My shoes were full of drippings as well so that I slipped and slid all the way back upstairs only to be met with another dilemma. My slicked up shoes were the only dress shoes I had. There was only time to do three things. I kicked off my shoes, peeled of my burn-prevention nylons and grabbed my roommates shoes. I raced to the other building, shoes in hand, where the choir was lined up waiting. I gasped my apologies, dropped the borrowed shoes on the floor and tried to slip into them.

People- it was like that scene from Cinderella where the ugly stepsisters are trying to force the glass slipper onto their bony feet. The shoes were two and a half sizes too small.

But alas, the choir was already on their way out to the stage and I had no choice but to wedge my toes in as best I could and toddle my way out after them. That concert was a misery. Not only were my feet in agony, but I had all the dread of that solo to come. And come it did.

I made my way to the front of the choir as best I could, considering my swollen and blood-deprived feet. The microphone was slippery in my greasy hands that I hadn’t had a chance to clean properly, and there in front of me was a room full of austere looking (to my nervous eyes) board members. I stood there in my too-small shoes, fully aware that I was about to butcher their language in a song that I was almost too embarrassed to sing. But the show had to go on. I focused on a spot in the back of the room and got through every last key change. It was done at last.

The rest of the evening was kind of a blur. I think the dinner turned out pretty well considering; even that treacherous pork. But my poor roommates shoes- they were never quite the same again.

25Nov2014

Expanding our borders (ever so slightly)

Posted in Daily happenings, dolls, Hand made gifts, Stuffed animals by Climbing Vine Clothing

Well, I know I’ve been posting a lot about my shop lately, but I wanted to get this out before the holiday weekend- you know, the weekend that starts the shopping mayhem for the next month.

Up ’til now, I haven’t done much with promoting my shop on designated online shopping days, or even Black Friday. But apparently, this Saturday is ‘Small Business Saturday’ and I was invited to join a real, live, local Etsy market to show some of my wares.

It’s at the downtown Chattanooga library, and I have no idea what to expect. Supposedly about 30 other vendors will be there, and as to numbers of customers- that’s anyone’s guess. But I thought, since it was free, that I might as well give it a try and get my stuff out there using a different venue.

So come on down and take a look if you are so inclined. And if you’ve been on the fence about buying my stuff, it will save you shipping : ).

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In other news, I posted something on my Facebook page a while back- something I couldn’t reveal on public media for disclosure reasons. I had received a rush order for three of my horses about two days before our big trip out west, and because of the generous amount this person was willing to pay, both to make them and ship them overnight, I went ahead and filled the order.

I am now at liberty to reveal what they were for. They were shipped out to Hollywood, CA for a little commercial. They really only needed one for the commercial, but ordered three to see which one looked better on set. It’s just a brief, horsey cameo, but I’m tickled pink about it. Take a look!

http://http://youtu.be/DtAbDkudP54

18Nov2014

A Holiday Herd

Posted in dolls, Hand made gifts, Stuffed animals by Climbing Vine Clothing

I know the season is already late, but I have been wanting to make at least one big push for my shop before the Christmas season is fully upon us. With travel and sickness and general busy-ness, I feel way behind where I was last year at this time. But last year, I was traveling for Christmas and so had to close my shop December 1st. We are staying in town this year, so I hope to be able to take orders through at least the first half of December.

So to get you all in a festive mood, I want to show you what I’ve been working on in between bouts of croup and trips to the ER. It’s a new series of horses that I have been having enormous fun designing. I posted my first plaid horse on facebook a few weeks ago, and couldn’t wait to do some more. But after I finished them, I felt like they needed a little something more, like maybe a rider.

I haven’t done a lot with pants for my dolls, but I like the little riding pants on this one. I even figured out how to make boots!

Since they go so well together, I thought I would try something new and sell them together on my shop this Christmas. Here they are on a country outing.

Aren’t they cute? I’m kind of excited about these two.

But here are some solo shots if you would like to purchase them separately.

And here are a few more of the herd by themselves.
One plaid with an auburn mane and tail.

And this rather striking fellow with a lovely gray houndstooth coat.

I am also continuing to sell my red horse. This one was by far my most popular last Christmas, but instead of wool, I decided to try making him out of a lovely cherry red corduroy. I like how it turned out.

Due to the uniqueness of the plaids in these horses, (they are made from wool skirts) they will only be available in twos or threes. So think of them as limited editions, but hopefully with new and different ones to come.

Let me know what you think! (And feel free to share ; )

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